Casey’s Blog..

It’s September now, for the past few months or maybe past year.. I’ve been hanging out with some people that i really enjoy hanging out with. Time passes by so fast, in a blink of an eye my form 4 life is gonna end soon and i mean soon, cause we’ll be having our finals soon and after that, some teachers will continue teaching the topics that could not be covered which is totally boring while other teacher will just come to class and not teach, so there really isn’t much time left. After a few months, the form 5’s will be graduating, that means i wont seeing them in school anymore, okay fine maybe they’ll come back and all but you just don’t get to see them everyday like it used to, it’s just different. i really couldn’t imagine my form 5 year without friends like teri, dana, sya and many more.. I’m starting to miss them even tough school year haven ended. They are having their trials now, so they are all so busy studying.. and i’m starting to feel left out. i seriously cant picture my form 5 life, it’s just so depressing to know that your friends are gonna leave one day.. XD at least we will still get to hang out during the holidays, i hope..

Omg… today was like the day!it’s was fun.. well, not at 1st cause to be honest, i was really tired so i like no mood to play, but i still played and i still hyper hyper cause I was one of the group leaders, i tried my best to lead them (i don’t think i did very well). anyway the 1st two games really tired me out! it seem i really pushed it to the limit, haha.. i like totally publicly humiliated myself which i kinda always do during st. john activities.. but this was a once in a life time thing, never gonna happen to second time, at least i hope it won’t. and i think i was really against the committee, maybe i was too into the games.. it’s like i was really fighting for the kingdom, you know.. against the dark side, haha just kidding.. anyway, i wish to apologize.. you can make a special request from me, i don’t mind singing apologize to you but just to warn you. it’s gonna be horrible! I’ll bring the roof down!oh, but i love the part that we got our revenge, it was cool.. the team leaders was like working together to get revenge.. and that part which we helped each other out to find flags and like to get the flags back from the committees.. and i totally loved the part about THE flag we gave the committees. haha, in your face! just kidding.. well, at the second last game, i got over the against the committee thing, i was just enjoying myself then, not that i dint before just that i enjoyed it more.. and at 1st i was wishing that time would pass faster, but at the last game i was really enjoying myself, i liked the station which we had to eat weird food, it was kinda tasty but i just dint like the baby food.. at the end of the day.. i was chasing xiau shan around with the egg.. wanted to crack it on him but like dint work cause i think the egg shell was too hard.. XD.. oh, i forgot about this.. me, sasa and ser ying was attacked by the committees on the way back to tapak perhimpunan, and i was totally using chai theng’s move against the committees.. but we manage to protect our flags. and when i got home, the 1st thing i did was DRINK WATER, then i went to take cold shower.. a painful one.. then  i start to wrote this blog.. and omg.. my tapak kaki hurts, my waist is like killing me, i cant walk properly.. maybe i move it too much.. ahha.. but the conclusion is, it was fun.. and thank you committee..

p/s : never chase xiau shan around the school! it’s gonna kill you!

Well.. Maybe i ask too much from my friends but what i want from everyone is just one simple action which is support. I’m a pathetic person i believe you all know that, and i know that too. I always believe that friends should be someone that supports you through out your whole life, but i guess I’m asking so much more than what you all could give. I’m just scared if i really keep bugging you all, you all would start to think that I’m annoying, and start to ignore me. I’ve so been through that. It’s a phobia to me. so I’m really afraid of going through that again. I always complain to my friends but i guess its just me that i don’t seem to appreciate what you all have done for me. everyone have flaws and i guess i wish that all my friends are perfect by being there for me all the time. Which is wrong to ask that much. I always find myself having trouble with friends, but i really guess its just me. Lastly, i just wanna say that being  ignored is not fun, i rather be told to my face. I’ve always tried to be there for you all when you all "need" me.. so if you all need me, you know i’ll always be there for you! XD

life.. what is the meaning of life? why is there life? well, i dunno the answer to those questions, it depends on how you see it, everyone have a different point of view.. but i just know that now my life is falling apart because of some issues.. for the past few weeks my life changed a lot, and i mean a lot.. well, these changes, you could say its good and bad.. but deep down inside me, i wish that this incident never occurred. at first it’s kinda like the best thing that could happen to me (50 : 50).. but now, things are becoming really bad.. I’m loosing my mind.. well yea, i said it! I’m going nutz..  i keep thinking about all these issues, all the time.. my life is just becoming more and more depress.. and i also feel that I’m loosing my friends.. my crazy side is telling me that they are ignoring me, which i hope is not true.. at this moment, i just need my friends to tell me that they are not ignoring me and talk to me.. but i cant force them to.. i might as well just lock myself in the room and never come out again, but i cant do that cause I’ll be giving up those delicious and yummy foods if i lock myself up.. haha.. just kidding.. anyway..  i really hope i can get this over with soon (I’ll try to).. and continue living my life happily..

this is just how i feel.. and don’t ask me what happen..

well… pmr results is finally out! after all these time, pmr is finally over and the results is finally out.. i hope everyone is happy with their results.. but i know some people obviously aren’t happy with it. well, just relax and accept it.. there isn’t much you can do now to change it! well, to tell you the truth if i were to have like 8E’s on my results sheet.. you can totally see me on the newspaper the next day! the tittle of the article would be "suicide because of 8E’s, and it’s totally acceptable!!" and it would also get into some record book or something, saying : Casey Leong Kheng Loong, record holder for worse results in pmr history.. well, at lease i die famously! but since I’m writing this blog now, so yea,I’m alive.. sorry to disappoint you, ha ha just kidding! oh ya.. do you all wanna know my results… erm, about that.. I’ll save it for the last! so lets continue.. erm well, 27 DEC.. a normal day and happy day.. NOT!! its the worse day of my life.. well that is before the results, so yea like usual scared, panic, phobia, out of control, loosing it! so i kinda woke up early and made breakfast.. yum yum! and then walked to school with man kit, when we reach school, THE RESULTS is already out! i am like OMG, i don’t wanna know, i wanna go home.. that kind of feeling.. and well, man kit got his first, so yea.. straight A’s.. not much of a surprise.. i got mine later, i was practically counting the A’s, well.. isn’t that normal!! and after that i was like oh okay, this is my results.. not so bad after all! and Teri never gave me any tissue which she was suppose too, but since i never cry.. so yea, no need for that.. but TERI you still hutang me tissue.. ha ha just kidding.. and after taking the results, went to "celebrate".. and then went to sasa’s house to watch bring it on 4.. kinda funny… and after that teman chai theng wait for bus then walked home.. well, i congratz the people who got good results.. including man kit, ser ying, rabin, taran, nixon, kevin, nicholas, li ching, jusryn, jo’anne, kam yoke, jie hui and etc.. well.. time to tell you my results.. my results are.. ( drum roll ).. oh look at the time.. its time for bed! ha ha.. I’ll tell you when i see you online.. blek! oh ya.. i forgot something.. erm,what i want to say is dreams have meaning.. i totally believe that now..